September 28

Spring has come and gone, as has summer, and without further hesitation, I feel compelled to catch a bit of fall in my writing.  Not only that, I wish to let go of what perhaps needs to be let go of, the imperfections that can imperfectly snag and nag one to the point of preventing the presence of the present from being here.

Why the date as the blog post title, you might be wondering?  Well, after having set aside a novel on my shelf, actually my two copies of the one novel, one being a giant-sized special edition of it, I have picked it up again after about a year, this time being the time of year when people most read this author's works.  So, perhaps you can see this coming, but within the first two pages of picking up the novel again where I last left off from the previous fall, a novel which I've read numerous times now--the day the novel resumes on is, you guessed it, September 28th: 

"That year the first day of fall (real fall as opposed to calendar fall) was September 28 ..."

This happened to be in the mid- to late-seventies when the novel's story takes place, but it seems strikingly dead on for fall this year, in 2017.  It is also rather spooky, or synchronistic, that I pick up the novel on the exact day that I read about in the novel.  Maybe I've read it so much, I knew that date was coming.  Perhaps, but the sentence I quoted above is not one I'm likely to lodge in my memory, except now after blogging about it.

So I thought September 28 an apropos title for this post, and something to write about after months of hiatus.

Why the hiatus?

I think I always try and write when I have something perhaps exceptional, extraordinary, or something illuminating to share, and I am not saying I do not this time, but this is my entire point.  Imperfection is a given and a reality and only needs to be said because I think we try and hang our coats on perfection, when the darn hook keeps being dragged down to the floor, not being able to take the weight of our attempts at it, what will always only be imperfection.

I have not blogged since April, until this time now this year, because I was fooled by my own interpretations of others' comments or actions.  Maybe I can assess them in a way that casts the shadow on them, when it really has to do with my own self-absorbed interpretations.

This time of year, perhaps it's natural to reflect on our own shadows, seeing them mirrored and shimmying down the lane, through tunnels of trees, in the curves of leaves blowing our way.  I can throw out this word, daemon, at perhaps the risk of what some others may think, but I will use the word anyway, it being a Greek idea of an intermediary between the divine and us humans, or perhaps the messenger within ourselves to spur us on to go deeper, to relinquish our cloud covering of light, to let the shadows appear to take a closer look at them, to not flinch, but to see where we might have obscured our own path.  

It's not the depth and death of winter yet, but it is time to reflect, to prepare, to let go of the previous suppositions and assumptions of the year thus far.

Be gone!  Whatever truths hanging there as falsities, still lingering, be gone!

A leaf here, a leaf there, just let them blow away and realize them as the phantasms that they are, back to the nothingness from whence they come.

Be gone!

No self-absorbed false truths to exist anymore.

September 28.

A good day to let the shadows dance and come, to freely swing them, and let them fade away, releasing them back into the nothingness from whence they come.

Be gone!